camwhore

it's the first day of holiday and i'm already this bored. :|

after tuition, i asked my brother to take few shots of me, but he refused, claiming his day as 'busy' and he had other important things to do. so i used my tripod :P


i'm wearing clothes slightly different from what i wore. i used to wear hippie-vintagey clothes but oh well, i don't know what this is called. so here i am.

and don't be bored :) i planned to make these into vintage B&W photos with pop of colour, but then my face turned all pale and too dull and stuffs like that sooooo i had to re-edit everything and it's tiring.

yes. i know it's a LOT of pictures and they almost look the same lol but i can't help it. hehe.



OH and tomorrow's picture day! i couldn't help getting nervous going to school with full on makeup hairdo and dress, seemed silly cos usually school's the only place i felt comfy enough not to beauty up and people don't really care if you are having a bad hair day. however it seemed fun too seeing all your friends dressing up for a day  :P oh well bye! pictures tomorrow ! :D

shattered minds

i seriously don't understand myself. a moment ago i want all these stuffs; freedom, to finish my middle school as fast as i can. moving is painful, but meeting new surroundings seemed really intriguing after 9 whole years of the same building and people. however, right now, i wish time would stop. i wish everything will slow down to a halt and i wish just this time, i can enjoy my right now, my last moments of being a student in my beloved school.


i finished my exams. instead of feeling free, i'm feeling more pent-up. it's weird and beyond my expectations. i started to feel more... emotional these days. 


i began to my old bad habit, looking back. i was over it a few months ago. i succeeded in getting myself out of it, gently coaxing myself that i'm living in this time, right here, right now, and looking back means wasting my 'right now'. in the future i'll just end up regretting why i didn't use my time well and kept looking back.
now, i'm worried. if i don't move on, if i don't let it all go and leave them for good, i will be in that state again. a foolish state. looking past and wasting present.


i will miss everything for sure, for starting this mid July, my life will be changing from everything it used to be. new school, home, friends, teachers, tuitions. everything is new. but i hope, in this way, stepping out of my comfort zone, my life will be better, full of new surprises, challenges, and of course, a thousand more of sweet memories to remember :)



soo not another more 'wise-ish' talking, lemme post food pictures from my family's early dinner. we went out today for what my mom said as relieving my pre and post exam stress. :D

it's all about comfort food. :)


and this is why i love rain. it's beautiful.

goodnight guys :*

first day : through

i woke up at 6 today and the sky was already bright, blue with streaks of sunlight. it's definitely a great start, and it gave me positive outlook of the exam i'm going to have today. mom made me breakfast, a tradition started by my grandpa during my mom was little. if someone in the family is going to have a big day ahead, my grandpa used to make them breakfast, and now my mom do it for my brother and i :)


the atmosphere at school was not tense at all. in fact, it was perfectly normal and the invigilators today were kind. all my worries drift away as soon as i started to do my exam. it's not as difficult as tryouts and everything seemed fine.


turns out all my worries were useless and i'm just being stupid. hehe.


well, i hope that the next three days are going to be just as great as this! especially day4, cuz it's science day :)



okay guys, gonna leave you with pictures taken at my new unfinished home yesterday. it was so so sunny yesterday and i'm being grateful that despite all the global warming threats and stuffs, the earth can still look so beautiful. aaaand please mind underdressed me. i'm just in the mood for comfy outfits yesterday. both the pink tee and jeans are my comfiest and most favourite items in my closet ever.

and here's the edited one. i uploaded both because my mom said edited pictures are ugly. however, i disagreed because for me, both are different and have their own beauty in my eyes. so, you decide! :)

byebye guys! going to review my English. it may be not too difficult but i know underestimating things can lead to a bad effect. soo... wish all of u luck for tomorrow! :D

sundaes

happy earth day people! :D

so todaaay, i reviewed my last tryouts' mistakes and do two more tryouts. i planned to re-read all the questions in my detik-detik book but my teacher said i better not do anything to make me more confused. great point, teacher. i believe in you :P

i think i'm ready for tomorrow's UN. just had to be extra careful in doing all the questions and following all the procedures well.


good luck everyone!

yesterday had been a great saturday too. i went home from school semi-exhausted, then had snacks with my brothers.

i didn't go out for dinner, and had takeout noodles instead. :)

but it was a beautiful sunny afternoon. and that's fine enough for me :D

okay. and lastlyyy, i'm going to give you a hint of my graduation photoshoot dress. nothing too much, like they say, simple is the best.

that's it. have a nice, warm sunday guys! and for the hundredth time, good luck nine graders for the next four days!!!

last friday night

i wanna post this last night but had no time for it, so i'm gonna post this post tonight and pretend that this is last night. ahh... if u find this confusing just pretend that i'm writing this post the night before.


20th April 2012

it's raining tonight. rainy nights are supposed to be the best nights for me. but the truth is, i'm being rather jumpy tonight. i don't know what i'm exactly worrying of, cuz basically, there's nothing to worry about.

i'm nervous for UN, the crucial exam we must take on Monday. i didn't really have any problem with it. overall, i can do the questions and if i didn't pass with flying colours, i will pass with marks above average. however, nowadays, i felt like my abilities are slipping away, my last bahasa tryout marks deteriorate to an embarassing twelve mistakes. i'm seriously freaking out right now cuz i never get that many mistakes before. my Science too. i'm not sure i can do science too well cuz i kinda suck at that. ha. i wonder why i became more and more careless each time, and quickly find the answer for it.

i'm not focussing on UN hard enough and i need more sleep.

there. that's definitely all the reasons of my not-too-good tryout marks. i hope it'll not affect me on the big day. i hope for the whole four days, my friends and i, no, the whole 9 graders in Indonesia can focus with all their mights to the exam.

i'm also scared that i make a mistake in writing my name or something but nah, i think i'm just being too paranoid. i should stop all that worries and negative/pessimistic thoughts or i'll end up suffering with psychosis. like Nina in the movie Black Swan.



well, i think after all these, i deserved a treat! yay!


chocolate. even though i don't really like sweet things, i understand why many people state chocolate as their comfort food.

aaand nooo i don't ate both. left one is my brother's :p

oh and here's some pics from my hangout last two weeks with my family. ugh i swear i won't come back to that restaurant at night, so many bugs. creepin. me out.

i'm wearing a CottonOn dress, Guess vest and Topshop flats, which remind me, i miss shopping so badly! i miss our town's movie theaters that smelt smelly/heavenly at the same time. yeah, what i meant by heavenly is the scent of popcorns. well, just five days left though. go on. fight for exams! :) bye



snake print sunday

hey rawr. a quick post of myself taken after my sunday nightout with beloved cousin Z, slash andy. we went to Bakerzin to have dinner tgether and have a long nice chat.


i was wearing a snake skin printed dress by Zara. :)

oh yeah, and i'm pretty excited that it's been raining oftenly this season, which was not supposed to be raining season but i guess that's probably the cause of global warming. however, i really really love the sound of rain. it's just so peaceful and relaxing. well, this is probably weird but i kinda love thunder and lightning too. yesss, weird. i know a lot of people who are so terrified of them. for me, to be able to see it and hear it is magical. it's like in the movies. so dramatic and eeriely beautiful, in some words i can't explain.

for me the perfect moment for it is when you're sitting in your bed in your dark bedroom, covered in your blanket, feeling warm, while it's pouring heavily outside. it's freezing cold outside and the rain won't stop pouring. then the lightning flashed and the thunderstorm occured, lighting your room with white rays for a moment before the pitch darkness swallowed it again.

well, the more dramatic moment for it will be definitely something from the old movies or cartoons. you were sitting in a chair, reading in an old library with your glasses on, the room is warm, dim with yellow lights from the fireplace. old scary classical music is playing in your gramophone. a thunderstorm is occuring outside, and the lightning strike, causing a ghostly shadow of you on the walls.

okay, i definitely had to stop before my imagination went wild. goodnight everyone! have a great rainy night :*

typical saturday nightout

how's your satday night spent? mine's lazy and relaxed. after watching some episodes of PLL (fyi, pretty little liars :)) i went out to the bookstore, then go eat sushi for dinner. typical. i wanna watch something so baaaad. i love movie theaters. but sadly, i gonna face some serious tests and i know, i know, i won't do good unless i work hard and going to movies is probably the last thing in my mind.


so basically, my week's been pretty good except for some 'personal' problems and too many tryouts. but i've been doing pretty well. aaaaand... i'm flippin right now! cuz i finally got the Ashley Benson covered teen vogue that i've been dreaming since... since... i first know she's covering it. and boy am i right, the fashion photos, news, celebs featured inside were all my favourites ♥.

there's even Gillian Vanderslice, my fave model from E's show Scouted.

now that i've got this April edition. it's time to wait for May's. Katy Perry as cover girl. wooooooot!!

today i wore a f21 top, pull and bear tulle skirt, zara cardigan. no i'm not officially starting a fashion blog or smthin like that. i just had the random urge to play around like that. so don't expect me to wear everything stylish and fashion forward cuz i'm soo soooo not that kind of girl. lol :)

 

well, i hope you survived pictures of me cuz that's just how much i love the camera. :P

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