last friday night

i wanna post this last night but had no time for it, so i'm gonna post this post tonight and pretend that this is last night. ahh... if u find this confusing just pretend that i'm writing this post the night before.


20th April 2012

it's raining tonight. rainy nights are supposed to be the best nights for me. but the truth is, i'm being rather jumpy tonight. i don't know what i'm exactly worrying of, cuz basically, there's nothing to worry about.

i'm nervous for UN, the crucial exam we must take on Monday. i didn't really have any problem with it. overall, i can do the questions and if i didn't pass with flying colours, i will pass with marks above average. however, nowadays, i felt like my abilities are slipping away, my last bahasa tryout marks deteriorate to an embarassing twelve mistakes. i'm seriously freaking out right now cuz i never get that many mistakes before. my Science too. i'm not sure i can do science too well cuz i kinda suck at that. ha. i wonder why i became more and more careless each time, and quickly find the answer for it.

i'm not focussing on UN hard enough and i need more sleep.

there. that's definitely all the reasons of my not-too-good tryout marks. i hope it'll not affect me on the big day. i hope for the whole four days, my friends and i, no, the whole 9 graders in Indonesia can focus with all their mights to the exam.

i'm also scared that i make a mistake in writing my name or something but nah, i think i'm just being too paranoid. i should stop all that worries and negative/pessimistic thoughts or i'll end up suffering with psychosis. like Nina in the movie Black Swan.



well, i think after all these, i deserved a treat! yay!


chocolate. even though i don't really like sweet things, i understand why many people state chocolate as their comfort food.

aaand nooo i don't ate both. left one is my brother's :p

oh and here's some pics from my hangout last two weeks with my family. ugh i swear i won't come back to that restaurant at night, so many bugs. creepin. me out.

i'm wearing a CottonOn dress, Guess vest and Topshop flats, which remind me, i miss shopping so badly! i miss our town's movie theaters that smelt smelly/heavenly at the same time. yeah, what i meant by heavenly is the scent of popcorns. well, just five days left though. go on. fight for exams! :) bye