shattered minds

i seriously don't understand myself. a moment ago i want all these stuffs; freedom, to finish my middle school as fast as i can. moving is painful, but meeting new surroundings seemed really intriguing after 9 whole years of the same building and people. however, right now, i wish time would stop. i wish everything will slow down to a halt and i wish just this time, i can enjoy my right now, my last moments of being a student in my beloved school.


i finished my exams. instead of feeling free, i'm feeling more pent-up. it's weird and beyond my expectations. i started to feel more... emotional these days. 


i began to my old bad habit, looking back. i was over it a few months ago. i succeeded in getting myself out of it, gently coaxing myself that i'm living in this time, right here, right now, and looking back means wasting my 'right now'. in the future i'll just end up regretting why i didn't use my time well and kept looking back.
now, i'm worried. if i don't move on, if i don't let it all go and leave them for good, i will be in that state again. a foolish state. looking past and wasting present.


i will miss everything for sure, for starting this mid July, my life will be changing from everything it used to be. new school, home, friends, teachers, tuitions. everything is new. but i hope, in this way, stepping out of my comfort zone, my life will be better, full of new surprises, challenges, and of course, a thousand more of sweet memories to remember :)



soo not another more 'wise-ish' talking, lemme post food pictures from my family's early dinner. we went out today for what my mom said as relieving my pre and post exam stress. :D

it's all about comfort food. :)


and this is why i love rain. it's beautiful.

goodnight guys :*