young at heart

so today's event retrieved my long lost childhood memories. the one with sleepovers with my cousins and doing all the silly games and stuffs. telling childish ghost stories, playing camping, gossiping, and building our own ghost shack. because todaaay, *drumrolls* cousins staying at my place wooot! well, it totally make me recall the past sleepovers we had like 5 years past or so, and this one's basically the same minus the games and sleeping in the same bed cause we're too old for that. hehe.


we had a really awful, in a great way, pajamas party. which is downright embarrassing, but what crazy fun things didn't involve crazy stupid name-wrecking embarrassing things? aaaannnndddd we also took pictures. with self timer, hell yeah! and planned to make a video but, well, bailed.

haaaah even greater things awaits tomorrow! can't wait to do a lil somethin somethin with my sis Z. G'nite!

last sunday

i had fun. not the best hangout i've ever had but it's worth it. the main point of it is to spent a great sunday with my close friends, and that is what i got :) 

i was going all topshop that day. almost. except for the dress. :)

goodnight. muah. :*

camwhore

it's the first day of holiday and i'm already this bored. :|

after tuition, i asked my brother to take few shots of me, but he refused, claiming his day as 'busy' and he had other important things to do. so i used my tripod :P


i'm wearing clothes slightly different from what i wore. i used to wear hippie-vintagey clothes but oh well, i don't know what this is called. so here i am.

and don't be bored :) i planned to make these into vintage B&W photos with pop of colour, but then my face turned all pale and too dull and stuffs like that sooooo i had to re-edit everything and it's tiring.

yes. i know it's a LOT of pictures and they almost look the same lol but i can't help it. hehe.



OH and tomorrow's picture day! i couldn't help getting nervous going to school with full on makeup hairdo and dress, seemed silly cos usually school's the only place i felt comfy enough not to beauty up and people don't really care if you are having a bad hair day. however it seemed fun too seeing all your friends dressing up for a day  :P oh well bye! pictures tomorrow ! :D

shattered minds

i seriously don't understand myself. a moment ago i want all these stuffs; freedom, to finish my middle school as fast as i can. moving is painful, but meeting new surroundings seemed really intriguing after 9 whole years of the same building and people. however, right now, i wish time would stop. i wish everything will slow down to a halt and i wish just this time, i can enjoy my right now, my last moments of being a student in my beloved school.


i finished my exams. instead of feeling free, i'm feeling more pent-up. it's weird and beyond my expectations. i started to feel more... emotional these days. 


i began to my old bad habit, looking back. i was over it a few months ago. i succeeded in getting myself out of it, gently coaxing myself that i'm living in this time, right here, right now, and looking back means wasting my 'right now'. in the future i'll just end up regretting why i didn't use my time well and kept looking back.
now, i'm worried. if i don't move on, if i don't let it all go and leave them for good, i will be in that state again. a foolish state. looking past and wasting present.


i will miss everything for sure, for starting this mid July, my life will be changing from everything it used to be. new school, home, friends, teachers, tuitions. everything is new. but i hope, in this way, stepping out of my comfort zone, my life will be better, full of new surprises, challenges, and of course, a thousand more of sweet memories to remember :)



soo not another more 'wise-ish' talking, lemme post food pictures from my family's early dinner. we went out today for what my mom said as relieving my pre and post exam stress. :D

it's all about comfort food. :)


and this is why i love rain. it's beautiful.

goodnight guys :*