you can't get enough: wise-ish

i was sitting on a garden, studying. i am an easily bored person, and considering the activity i was doing couldn't be more attractive, i looked around, daydreaming, when my eyes caught something. blooming flowers. their petals seem so soft and were bursting with vivid colours. being the "chiu cien" me, i went over there and were about to feel the flowers with my fingers. my intention was just to touch it, nothing bad. but when i did it, all the petals fell off.

i was really uneasy. it's such a waste that my careless action ruin such beautiful thing. then a random thought popped in my mind. i don't know but somehow, the flowers kinda resembled people's feelings. sometimes, people have nonchalant intention, or even good ones. however, as things are very unpredictable, they don't always come out the best way. things that you want to show to people you care about just turn out the opposite way. it happens a lot in my life. i realised that sometimes, i only wanted to do the best, but things keep screwing up. it's also likewise. every so often, people just want the best for me, but i often regard it as a malice.

maybe by tomorrow, or next days and weeks, the flower will bloom again, with petals bigger and stronger than its previous ones, bolder and more vivid.

it's just the same. only later when i realise that what they were doing was because they care about me that i appreciate them. it was great if the gratefulness come in the right time. however, at worse times, they come late, they come last. it's sad when you realised that people actually care about you, but everything is too late because you've pushed them away.

i hope to be wiser. i want to give people chances and i want to appreciate people. i want to cherish all the love i get and i want to let the hate replenish me even more. everyone is not the same, and of course it affects the way they show their feelings. it's just up to how one decipher it.

well okay, let's cut the wise-ish crap. and since it's fall...